How funny is that? Today is the first day of being really committed to this and I'm already writing a one month review. How could I possibly know how it's going to turn out a month from now?
After chuckling at myself for being so silly, I started thinking more and realized I do this a lot. In the past when I've started a something new I'd immediately start talking to myself as if the goal had already been reached. When I planned a vacation last summer I mentally ran through scenarios of me talking to friends about how much fun I had, even getting to specifics. Weird thing is I did that before the plans to go were even finalized.
On one hand I see the value of this. Athletes who run mental movies of themselves performing perfectly do much better in the actual game than those who don't. I've seen people do this for job interviews too, running a mental movie of the interview going well and people smiling and happy and the job being offered to them. So I know there's value to this type of forward projection. It's part of manifesting (by the way welcome to those from my LOA blog... glad you're here) and there is definitely a place for it.
In fact the reason I do it so naturally and automatically is that I've trained myself over the years to focus on the outcome, letting the details work themselves out how they will.
However.......... this morning I wasn't writing a mental post about some general outcome. I found myself saying things like "well the first week was _____ and then I had this experience on the second Tuesday and almost blew it on ______ but I got around it by _____." I was writing a very detailed movie script for something that hadn't even happened.
This isn't how I want to experience life. In fact I'm re-thinking the whole "project the outcome you want" idea and I may just ditch it in favor of "make a decision, go with it, then just let it play out on it's own."
Anti-manifesting? I don't think so. I think there are times and places in life for both approaches and right now with everything changing so fast I want to sit back and allow it to develop as it will with as little interference from me as possible. Why? Because I'm in uncharted territory here. I'm in a place in life that I've never been and I know that trying to manifest a certain outcome or set an agenda at this stage of the game will actually limit my possibilities.
I'm dreaming big here... bigger than I've ever dreamed and my limited mind and life experience cannot fathom what the future will look like or how it will feel. The only things I know for sure is that it will be vastly different than the present I live in today, change will be huge and amazing, and it will be good! Really good!
So the point is I'm going to do a 180 here and STOP trying to orchestrate the outcome for a while, opting instead to just go with the flow, and trusting that it's all going to work out much better than imagined.